life is dangerous. there is no safety. so make it yours.

We imagine someone is “lower vibration” only in as much as we are still unable to love.

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I miss ecstatic dance practice. The pandemic ended it for me and now I live in a new city that doesn’t have a scene. I’m\ thinking about starting one. I would need to be healthy enough to commit. Rent a space and get it going. I am receptive to when the opportunities arise.

Dance changed my life for the better. Finding “our” dance involves listening to the body and paying attention to how it interacts with the environment. Listening and then responding to the music and our surroundings.


There is no thought, there is only emptiness as the body moves seamlessly in union with the music and the energy of the room filled with other dancers. In doing this practice one learns how to bring the dance off the floor. All life is a dance, we see. In this way it’s possible to follow the energy of life thus finding the dance that only we know how to dance·


I dance alone now sometimes and I still miss people hugely. I also dance in weird places like empty grocery store aisles etc. It’s generally been rather amusing when I’ve been caught, as well, though I’m good at not getting caught.

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I spend 20 minutes in the sun every day I possibly can. I get as naked as possible, too. . I do that for the vitamin D and healing a long-term chronic health condition but I get a darn good tan as well. I love it so much. Sun is like nature kissing you. The sun, like many other good things from nature, has been demonized. I understand some people have real reason to be worried about sun exposure but some of us really can stand to get some sun and it’s truly healing medicine.

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Let the she take charge of the inner work — watch it all become softer. Men have determined too much for too long. It affects even how we clean up our lives if we are spiritual sorts. Find your feminine and let the real clean up begin. Gaia and all of creation is waiting for you. Softer, gentler, kinder and more efficient too. find the feminine…it is within us all regardless of gender, sex or gender identification. Psychology and psychiatry have been dominated by men and is, as such, often simply patriarchal in it’s application.

Psychology and psychiatry have been dominated by men and patriarchal thinking and is, as such, often harmful in it’s application. This, of course, includes when women are doing the therapizing etc. There are some schools that attempt to include the feminine and the earth etc. Academia and how it’s taught is drenched in the worse elements of patriarchy and that often includes such institutions that claim to present more radical views. Institutions are rarely free of patriarchal toxicity.

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The difference between my good friends and acquaintances and those I’d rather not spend much time with is whether or not they allow my experience, which is often rather nightmarish. We may not often talk details but I can be frank about it’s awfulness. Acknowledgment is critical. Then I enjoy friends and social engagements a whole lot when I can manage them. But without the acknowledgement they really can’t even happen because I can’t even make plans given the condition of my life.

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being authentic is often not at all welcomed…we need to figure out how to do it anyway…

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one way of viewing the deconditioning process is one of letting go of rules, in general. All spiritual practice/vehicles/disciplines become problematic. The point of practice is to come to a place where the vehicle is disembarked! Get off the merry-go-round…whatever it is.

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a mob mentality is prevailing in politics these days…across the board from all sides. Step out and take a look instead of participating. I promise you opening up your perspective is a good thing.

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I often get emails with requests for support, both from family members and individuals who’ve been gravely harmed by psychiatry. The part that is hard for me and the reason I stopped doing most one on one work is that they are asking for support that I myself have never received. I did the work at Everything Matters to make people aware of the heinous treatment of people harmed by psychiatry. I don’t actually have much to offer the folks who’ve been most injured. It’s all on the site. We find our own way. That’s what I’m doing and I can’t do it for anyone else. I’ve shared my experience.

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give me clarity or give me death

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Avoiding “drama” as a spiritual habit? Maybe you’re just not in any important relationships. Humans learn, love, heal and inspire in story/drama. Some of that which the spiritual world holds up as sacred are a means for the patriarchy to oppress. Be silent. Avoid drama. No thank you. As we mature drama changes…knowing how to watch and witness in awareness and not *just* react makes for more skillful drama.

If we force our “drama” silent when we still have trauma to heal, we are not being skillful…we are going into spiritual bypass…there are appropriate times to do what often gets called acting out…many of us will not heal if we don’t have an opportunity to let stuff out. There are simply not enough safe contrived therapeutic settings — some of it MUST be acted out. Deal with it. That is reality. Once we allow it…things do mellow out. That’s how growth happens sometimes.

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**life is dangerous. there is no safety. so make it yours.**

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