we are being called to radical alchemy. the marriage of opposites…

a litany of Trust: trust everything. trust yourself trust the environment trust me trust your lover and trust your enemy trust the trustworthy and trust the untrustworthy. it’s becoming grossly evident…that reality and the powers that be are trustworthy and steadfast. …

Golden nuggets from beyond

The entire world is conventional. One can wear different costumes and the manifestations of dysfunction then vary…a lot. We live in paradox. In any case it seems the only thing left to do is rejoin humanity and ignore all stories and simply wander among my brothers and sisters. *** A friend who briefly was sortContinue reading “Golden nuggets from beyond”

Let the light of your madness shine and I learned transcendence from my father’s cooking

“Be silent and listen: have you recognized your madness and do you admit it? Have you noticed that all your foundations are completely mired in madness? Do you not want to recognize your madness and welcome it in a friendly manner? You wanted to accept everything. So accept madness too. Let the light of yourContinue reading “Let the light of your madness shine and I learned transcendence from my father’s cooking”

Follow her into the wilderness. She will heal you.

my natural authentic self makes most people uncomfortable… I actually once believed that waking up, being aware and being oneself openly and honestly would create a person that everyone could not help but adore…. *** my experience of PTSD is that there are specific (unidentified) species of bacteria/virus/fungus that opportunistically take advantage of the stressedContinue reading “Follow her into the wilderness. She will heal you.”

be the snake: eat yourself

auto-immune illness, chronic illness, withdrawal illness (how it’s all linked for me) I learned “auto-immune” meant my system was in over-drive all the time because it was fighting real infections. Western medicine says that auto-immune means the body is hurting itself. For me this was untrue. My body was fighting and waiting for me to startContinue reading “be the snake: eat yourself”

Hello. My name is Monica. I’ve come back from the dead.

like the term AFFLICTION . A good term for the kaleidoscopic nature of chronic illness. There is no minimization of the real physical manifestations. We’re not imagining it. They are nervous system and micro-biome issues and they will manifest in endless ways. They cannot be put in boxes. …

Mask wearing for dummies

a post…just because I cannot shut up and that which most people refuse to consider when innocent people are being harmed. First tweeted here. Slight edits for clarity and a bit of further development are included below. my (personal) position on mask wearing: not being able to breathe well is awful and sometimes dangerous. stayingContinue reading “Mask wearing for dummies”

Somatic living is life itself speaking to us

Dissociation is more frequently an issue then recognized. Projection (something pretty much everyone does) is a form of dissociation. Disembodiment is the norm. People avoid embodiment because the process can be physically painful… sometimes so acute it’s permanently avoided. This is a serious issue. Food and other addictions and aversions both are used to avoidContinue reading “Somatic living is life itself speaking to us”