my natural authentic self makes most people uncomfortable… I actually once believed that waking up, being aware and being oneself openly and honestly would create a person that everyone could not help but adore…. *** my experience of PTSD is that there are specific (unidentified) species of bacteria/virus/fungus that opportunistically take advantage of the stressedContinue reading “Follow her into the wilderness. She will heal you.”
life is dangerous. there is no safety. so make it yours.
more musings from monica
be the snake: eat yourself
auto-immune illness, chronic illness, withdrawal illness (how it’s all linked for me) I learned “auto-immune” meant my system was in over-drive all the time because it was fighting real infections. Western medicine says that auto-immune means the body is hurting itself. For me this was untrue. My body was fighting and waiting for me to startContinue reading “be the snake: eat yourself”
Hello. My name is Monica. I’ve come back from the dead.
like the term AFFLICTION . A good term for the kaleidoscopic nature of chronic illness. There is no minimization of the real physical manifestations. We’re not imagining it. They are nervous system and micro-biome issues and they will manifest in endless ways. They cannot be put in boxes. …
Mask wearing for dummies
a post…just because I cannot shut up and that which most people refuse to consider when innocent people are being harmed. First tweeted here. Slight edits for clarity and a bit of further development are included below. my (personal) position on mask wearing: not being able to breathe well is awful and sometimes dangerous. stayingContinue reading “Mask wearing for dummies”
Somatic living is life itself speaking to us
Dissociation is more frequently an issue then recognized. Projection (something pretty much everyone does) is a form of dissociation. Disembodiment is the norm. People avoid embodiment because the process can be physically painful… sometimes so acute it’s permanently avoided. This is a serious issue. Food and other addictions and aversions both are used to avoidContinue reading “Somatic living is life itself speaking to us”
Food as medicine – a world of options
Salt cured black olives…the wrinkly kind soaked in olive oil. To Die For. Also good medicine. I eat them when my body needs them and then, Oh My. Just had one of those moments. When I was growing up I used to eat the ones from my grandfathers farm from the olive trees he grew….
an alternate view (mental health)
an alternate view (not necessarily in conflict with any other…many things coexist at the same time) My experience suggest that the “astral” realm is also access to the micro-organisms living in our very bodies….we are multitudes…and it’s all right here, right now. Physical and part of our bodies…we share a lot of it with othersContinue reading “an alternate view (mental health)”
Buzzing words come
We’re all selfish human beings in training to become the lovers we are as well. The surviving animal must be “selfish.” As we come out of pure survival, the species depends on us becoming lover. Love madly, passionately, indiscriminately. Start with your own selfish self. *** let go. let go. let go. *** In surrenderContinue reading “Buzzing words come”
Time…it marches on
More of my latest meanderings: Egalitarian “hetero” relationships don’t need to look like God/Goddess (or anima/animus) relationships. They’re not distinctively nor necessarily male and female. Both partners may embody both male and female. A man may be more archetypically female . A woman might be more male. Hetero-normative crap is crap. I see women andContinue reading “Time…it marches on”
All Signal 